2018 Has come and gone and not a single thing was posted from my side.
It has been a challenging year for me, and in reality the challenges was continuation of hard times since 2016. After retrenched from a job I loved and had been doing for 11 years it was hard finding full time employment. Since I had some funds, I was able to carry myself for a while, however finding an opportunity to get back into full time employment was not a fun experience, and certainly not one I wish others to experience.
I have realized that many people who claim to know and care for you have no idea what actually happens in your life, and quite frankly, are comfortable looking the other way. Although this is hard, it is also insightful and in the end, part of what makes us stronger.
I do not believe it will add value to highlight my challenges, we all face our own hardships, however I do want to say that I have not had the support so many assume without asking. As such, I could not post anything during the year, my spirit was broken, and I did not feel sharing the light I could hardly see myself.
Instead, let me focus on the highlights of this year, because no matter the negatives, we can always find many positives, if only we choose to look for them.
This year I have discovered that when you have an excess amount of apples and, you have done all the cooking and preserving you can do, including apple butter, apple cider vinegar, dried apples and apple puree for soap making it would be good for you to consider making wine too.
Firstly, I am not a big wine drinker, and honestly, I prefer mine sweet. However, it is worth a try, after all, preserving gives me great joy. The excess apples, which was about 50 kilograms, turned into apple wine. Admittedly, I was disappointed that I did not manage to get my wine sweet, as I prefer, however I ended up with more than 50 liters of wine and now, I quite like it. Naturally, if you have so many bottles of wine, this allows you to be creative, and as such, I infused my wines with various fruits. Most of these turned out disappointing, buy hey, I can use wine for cooking. The best outcome I had was when I infused Marulas into the wine; oh, my… that was a winner. I also tried to test and see what percentage alcohol the wine ended up at, but after two tries, two separate meters, I figured, it really does not matter at all since I do not need a meter to tell me it has kick.
I was also able to get to work with my brother for a while, and I must admit that it was amazing to see how well we work together, but more importantly, it was wonderful to mend a bond that were strained for many years.
After the mosaic project for my bedroom that started in December and turned out to be a huge success, I also decided to create a similar project for my kitchen floor. I must add that this was not as easy as I had to remove novilon tiles and the entire gunk that went with it. I had to chip and hammer and clean the surface and then screed to get it somewhat level before I started with the tiling process.
This project started in April and although we are often very enthusiastic when things start out, as hiccups arise and change the plans we made for ourselves, the project timeline too changes. None the less, the floor was successfully mosaiced. There is still much that need to be done, however every little bit that I moved forward gave me joy. Milestones along the way reminding me that happiness are found is the smallest of things.
In July, I became a Granny as my beautiful daughter gave birth to a daughter. They have chosen the name of Cassidy for her, and I am just so excited to have a little apprentice in the wings. Ever so eager for her to grow up a little more so that I can start teaching her all about the joy and happiness, healing and sustenance nature so loving provides.
One of the things I enjoy most is going to the park and sharing space with all the beings that grows there. As a landscape change over seasons, we are able to meet more beings, some that only become visible in autumn or spring.
This year, I have met Rose-hips, and ended up making the most beautiful facial oil. I also, per chance stumbled upon Grandiflora Passion Flower. Although I never think, it has anything to do with chance and is more likely a case of the time was right. More than that, I was able to bring two sprigs home and now I have two vines that started growing in my own space. I cannot wait to see their beautiful blooms and the fragrance that accompanies them.
Then there was the spider bite! I know that off the cuff you would ask what joy that brought, but the reality is that when the vet saves your puppy (always a puppy at seven) there is much happiness to celebrate life. Somehow, a spider decided that my dog Chinos needed to alter his vocals (only kidding but it was a reality) and bit him. What started out as a small wound the size of my thumb nail escalated to the size of my palm in 5 days. This was not pleasant to experience as he was literally trying to rip his skin apart. Naturally, I did not know that the cause of this wound was a spider but I am extremely grateful that the wonderful vet rescued my puppy. Now his bark is more contained, and although it makes no sense the truth is, this bite affected his vocal cords and I bet my neighbors are delighted with a lower bark. #Gottolovethesmallthings
In September, I attended a family reunion and was touched to see that my family extended into well over the 100’s. It was wonderful to catch up with cousins and nieces I have not seen in more than 15 years.
Leaving the best for last, finally, in December I landed a full time employment again. It has been rough, hard, challenging, and dark times for quite a while. Now however I can turn my head to the sun, and look forward to a new year with new beginnings.
As always, I am grateful for opportunities to grow personally as well as spiritually.
May your 2019 be filled with much joy, love, and laugher.
I thank you for being part of my journey, sending you love and light wherever you may find yourself.